One and everyday LIFE

2009-07-20T18:01:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to JB to play paintball. OMG it very painful went kana hit lor. Some of my friends got blue black! I got a bruise on my stomach despite wearing the bullet proof suit + overall + my own t-shirt

Hais running hight fever now!!!! Whole body is aching like siao. . . .I gt three days MC

Attention cyclist - watch out for this people!!!

2009-07-12T21:59:00.007+08:00

Yo, came back from BATAM cycling expdeition. Everything went on smoothly, excepts last part. . . . .

Especially me, really really very sway . . . bad things doens just happen onces. . .

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, feel like killing people you know.

2009-07-12T21:59:00.003+08:00

2009-07-12T21:59:00.001+08:00

2009-07-02T21:56:00.006+08:00

TML LAST PAPER!!!!!

yesterday went swimming, so sway lor. . . when something hard hard de hit my face. you know what is it. . . . f la, it was a sanitary pad!!!! Bad luck Bad Luck.

Instead of studying, was browsing some photo I took in malacca two weeks ago. Went there with my frens anf family, it certainly bring backs a lot of memories.

MOre photo will put in FB, if i still rem -.-

School Started

2009-06-30T22:22:00.002+08:00

Because of holiday.. . my face start to erupt again!!! Wan to see a doc to get some mecdicine.

So stressed up due to MST (because of not studying a single subject) hoping luck will be on myside.

Saturday is my only family day (real families day), but will be quit busy for next few weekends. As coming wed, thur, fri is test.

3rd Fri night there is a round island training. . . probably end around 2am.
4th Sat - Go JB with Rover to SHOPPING and MAKAN!!!
5th - Round island on my own.
11th 12th- Cycling expedition in Indo (Hopefully won get the H1N1)
18th - My fren wedding. . . .

Cheers

Tired

2009-06-13T07:34:00.002+08:00

Recently joining a new cycling group called "Joyrider". Waking up 4am to train with them. However when I stepped out of house, thunder clouds are forming and lighting are flashing. . . . wth la.

But still, make a 22km loop outside before continue to sleep again :X

Deep thoughts running in my mind. . . . .

PISSED OFF

2009-06-12T18:27:00.002+08:00

What is the feeling of being scolded by someone due to somebody fault, and when trying to explain. . . . "Pls do not push the blame to others!" ?

Ask me, I know the best, cause I had tasted it TWO times.

I am realy really very pissed off by this. . . .

Maybe, what I am angry at is not getting scolding, is why some people is just so bias and why do I have such leader. FUCKUP really FUCKUP

2009-06-10T22:59:00.002+08:00

This isnt a holiday for me. . . . plenty of things to do!

PLS spare me for a minute of free time. . . pls. Just feel like sitting down and cry! ( Abit sissy la)
Hais. . . NO ONE WILL UNDERSTAND THE PAIN

ITP Posting

2009-02-16T00:00:00.003+08:00

ITP posting is out. . . .

Posted to a Japanese company~ Nippon Kaiji Kentei Kyokai (Japan marine inspect and servey association)

Arrh lol only I one person. . . .

2008-12-29T21:37:00.002+08:00

Hahaha still trying hard to post the cycling trip photo in my blog, but face some difficulties. . . will try to resolve asap.

Come to think of it i didn spend a good time during Xmas eve, xmas and the last day of holiday. Mostly spend alone and do nothing. . . . come and think of it. . . I should plan my life better next time. Btw. . . i think this coming NY will also be the same bah. . . haha

Actually skip school today, simpily I am restless. Jus had a quarrel with my family jus now. . . . .wtf laa.................so pissed off!

OCBC cycling is nearer and nearere, but hardly can fork out time for serious training.

2008-12-16T00:27:00.002+08:00

YOYO

Back from sea camp, I really enjoy it. Benefit a lot from it. . . . really, learn a lot of things, in terms of soft hard skill and other knowledge!

Will be going malacca expedition this thurs. All the best to myself! Will try to take lots and lots of photo :D

2008-12-09T00:22:00.002+08:00

I dunno why people thinking can be so simple minded. Calling yourselve JCs student. . .Uni student ??? Wao lao hahaha pls dun make me laught till my teeth drop.

I really dunno hw to comment. Since you all cant differentiate from good or bad. . . . sorry then no use talking. If it is not for the experience you think I risking my life for nothing!

Ahh shit la, dam irrtated now because of all this. . . . . . .

I am not telling to other people because I know what is their reply and comment. I will feel even more irritated by it. . . . .they are jus like adding salt to the wound. . . . .

BACK

2008-12-06T10:00:00.002+08:00

Hi ya ya friends,

MST finaly over. . . althought some paer was such but ok. . . . work hard next time :D

The malacca cycling exp is getting nearer and nearer, seriously I think that I am putting my live in danger going with them. . . . .have lots of reason, ut not going to say it here!

Yesterday receiving an email regard abt the safety vehicle for the expdition, this guy (donno who is he) suggest that we don rent a vehicle cause it will be troublesome. . . . . . And he point out that got a lot of guy went expedition without vehicle and they event went alone to Kl, Thailand. . . . and then later he was like talking abt he experience. . . .say he dun even ned, going malaysia is nothing. . . .WTF

Fuck rite, our team is a new team. Me and another guy only have this mere 3 months cycling experience. . . you wan to compare us with those professional.

And this is our first time going, we have no experience or dunno what the terrain is like, if there is an accident or something that one of us counldn pedal? what we going to do. . . .call a cab? fuck la

And a lot a lot more things to say. . . . . ahhhh but jus. . . . . .

2008-11-26T23:16:00.000+08:00

So irritated, dunno why always error when trying to changing blogskin!!!!! arrgh

2008-11-25T20:16:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone,

Tired and restless week for me!

1. MST coming in abt one weeks time, have 5 test, and one more coming this thur. Can you imagine that I didn revise anything at all!!! The worst is I dun understand anything at all!!!

2. WHOLE family is going for holiday agin, I mean real WHOLE family. . . . I was alnoe again, hate the feeling.

3. Wanted to save up, but the previous camp i sepnd abt $30 dollars, WTF and worst still, one of my bike componenets spoil, NEED to change.

4. It is hard to balance my exercise program woth all the school works.

5. Rover event, the evnt which I had been doing fo rthe past 6 month, currently is giving a lot of stress again, worst still, test coming. I reall had no time for it, I had been trying to act strong in front of the committe, but as time go by, I really atrat to worry abt the event.

We are not full time rovers, we still have sch, work, relation, other program, other CCA, and OTHER EVENT GOING ON TOO. I do mean me, but like my dept, we have ppl with three event going on too!!!

Shit Shit, I dunno wat to comment on it. Don wish to add oil to the fire!!! SUCKS

2008-11-23T13:27:00.002+08:00

Hello, jus came bacj from pulau Ubin camp. Kind of tired. The most thing that i do most is set fire, haha. Sometimes I jus feel that I am an extra in the camp, didn help out much!

2008-11-16T23:01:00.002+08:00

Humans behave in a lots of ways, which is the correct way?

1. Behaviour
Can we really understand how a person behave? Or why they have such behaviour, Take for example, there is a incident this few days which let me run through a lots of thoughts! Emmm, who to blame? haha only ourselves.

2. Friends
Is there really such things as friends? Or should i said meaning of friend " A person close to you because he/she want to get something from you AT THAT MOMENT" Does it make sense? hahaha anyway this is a more pessimistic saying bah. . . . . .

3. Cycling
I know this few days my blog had been quite sain. . . . cause it is always abt cycling cycling, but honestly, currently cycling is part and parcel of my life. Although people think I am an idiot. . . always spend so much money on bike or always talk about bike. . so boring, but to me, I viewed it as an motivation. Something which I can really look forward to everyday, even every moment.

SADDLE

2008-11-14T22:11:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA. . . Today I finally change the saddle of my bike le. . always wanted to change. Althought not really like the colour or design.

A Pro performance saddle. The saddle is handmade in italy

SELLE ITALIA saddle ($180).

Carbon Fibre and titanium Rail
This saddle is super hard lor, sitting on it is like sitting on a piece of wood. . . . sitting on it W/O cycling shorts will rot your ass. . . hahaha!!! My next target is carbon fibre seat post :D

This is the protein which i had been drinking to substain my muscle health. . . . .haha, GNC powder, dam ex lor.
This is the new protein which i ask my frioend to order fron internet. Today I notice GNC is darn ex. . . .one particular brand from internet is $80, then same brand from GNC is $130(special price) $200 orginal price. . . WTH

Can you imagine how big it is . . . . .

2008-11-13T20:02:00.001+08:00

I am sick again !!!

Pain Pain Pain. . my right hand is in extreme pain. . .

2008-11-12T21:14:00.003+08:00

Hais. . . this few days dunno wat happen to me. . . feeling something is missing. Sometimes you got to admire someone. They live a ******* live. . . .emm, sometimes you got........OK this is life!!! ppl ae born differently. . . . . .but to me. . . . I still think is the character that make them behave this way, rather than the life!!!

Night Cycling

2008-11-10T19:40:00.003+08:00

Went night cycling the other day. . . . . .emm, a not bad one, get to meet andy, which didn see each other for quite sometime. Haha, we went city tour. . . . i only have this two pic. . .

And good news, in few weeks time i will be able to change my stem to those racing de, plus my saddle to those performance saddle :D

FUCKING PISSED OFF

2008-11-05T21:22:00.003+08:00

OK, I am really really fucking pissed off today. Everybody can see it, but no one will understand how it feel!!!

First, tml got a test on the stupid subject which might not have time to finish the paper.

Secondly, CCA stuff now is like crushing on me. . . . .wanna take a break now. . .arrght

Thirdly, this really pissed me off. My the stupid module thing got some problem, and i may have to forward module.

In the appeal letter I wrote thatI wanted to take ICA again, and exemption from classes. According to the section head, "retake ICA do not ned to redo lab report and exemption from classes includes lab session". Exemption was approve and my module that crashed with it was approve to carry on.

But today some MF, (that module lecturer) called say I have to attend my lab lesson, if not he fail me. But i gt lesson that crashed with it, and I don wish to do it AGAIN. Because my letter only state exemption from lesson, not lab, and also wanted to redo ICA which lab was part of the component.

Fuck la, I have to forward module for 1 sem because I didn include "cary forward lab component and exemption for lab" ????? OK, maybe i aknowledge it my fault that didn include this. . . . but that MF is famose for doing thing law by law. he always say "the letter say. . . . . or you wrote. . . " FUCK la,

In the first place, I asked him twice abt the procedure to do. . . he replied "sorry I don know, you have to ask *****" so i went ask ***** to help me with everything, and act according to his story. . . . . . but now everything cannot. . . KNN. . fuck la

Fucking pissed off man. . . . . . I dun wan to repeat for a stupid reason of not adding a sentence to into the letter!!!

My BICYCLE

2008-11-03T20:37:00.004+08:00

YEAH, this is my bike "2008 Diamond back Performance Hybrid bike" haha. Though this is not an expensive bike, but overall was not bad compare to others bike. . . . $800

Cycling cleats (the shoe) $200. . . . .

Pedal from ??? forget already. . . .$135
ANd too bad my cleats from the shoe have wear out, have to replace new pairs $25 and a cover to protect it $20++.

It is so dangerous to have the cleats wear out because it become so slippery toi walk on, and also legs tend to kick out when sprinting. . . almost had two accident with it :(

I think I have spend abt $1800 on the bike already. . . . .omg, still a lot more to buy :X

1. Cleats and cover. . . . $50++

2. Saddle. . . .$300++ (the most la). Thinking of getting 200++ bah

3. Shorts. . . . $100++ for 1 shorts. (NO choice, it is a must)

4. Jersey (design that are simple). . . . $100

5. Carbon Fiber seatpost. . . . .$180

6. Stem. . . . (A must change)

GEMS

2008-10-29T18:57:00.002+08:00

Long boring day. . . . .the only interesting things happen today was spmepne slepping soundly and snpring in class!

Because we are have GEMS class, and all know that it is VERY boring. . . .so there is this guy who is twice of my size falling asleep. . . .at first i heard weird sound, when i turned back. . OMG he is sleeping soundly. . .and even snoring. Friends beside me all start to laught. . . .ha ha and they even took vedio of him.

OK I admit it is bad to laught. . . BUT it is really hilarious !!!

CYCLING

2008-10-27T20:45:00.003+08:00

OMG, yesterday I was darn happy lor, because of my bicycle training. Emm, hw should I start? OK, I will start from the first training bah...

First Training
My average was 16km/h or so. And went training after a night cycling! After the training was really really tired out for that day!

Second(Av: 19.8) / Third (Av: 22) training
Was conduct along YCK Rd to Sembawang Rd. There is a lot of up hills along the roads, during up hill, I could barly catchup with the leader....was lacking quite behind during uphills.

Fourth (21)/ Fifth (22) (sick)
From kovan to changi, showing improvement, even catchup with leader during fourth training.

personal training
covered 100km that day

Sixth (22)
Two days after personal training, leg was still sore, seeriously lacking behind the leader.

After the third training, did not really feel the tireness, recovery was fast. At first I mostly the last guy (althought not only me la) ... ...and i swear I dun wan to cause the team to slow down, becaise of me. And the forth training show improvement, it really boost my confidence, but sometimes, I still not able to catch up with them... ... ...

I really really swear i wan to overtake them, i did much training on legs, and others body parts. I eat the correct food. . . do a lot a lot of training!!!

And finally, yesterday training, we covered 95km at the av seed of 24Km/h, sometimes even hit 25km/h. The most happy things was to heard three things from the leader:

1. "Ehh, jus now I hardly can catchup with you all" when we traveling down woodlands, speed 33 - 36 km/h, I can even hit higher speed, have to slow down because of another leader leading in front.

2. "Can we shorten the training, I really cant pedal any more" And I still have a lot of energy to cvomplete another 20km or more!

3." you really show improvement, you are training too hard" HA HA HA OMG, I am so happy!

So far, my highest recorded speed is 53km/h :D hehehe

2008-10-19T22:25:00.002+08:00

HEY YO...It had been since I left this blog, haha, jus simply lazy to update bah..haha. Anyway I am back!

OMG, you know wat, during this MIA period, I actually lost weight, I lost 7KG.....YEAH. But I pay a lot of price for it. Cause I am engaging in a new sport...and thats cycling. Currently used up all my money on cycling. Until now, i think it is worth while, imagine i have travel whole singapore in my bike, i get to meet new frens and get to LOST WEIGHT :D

I wanted to change my bike ahahahahahah!!!!

2008-09-03T21:09:00.002+08:00

Yeah today went Sengkang swimming to swim. OMG, the facilities there was not bad, we played the slides, water playground and the jacuzi, hahaha. It is so fun lor.

After swim, went around with my frens to source for a road bike. . . . hais. . .no result.

Guess wat, ther is a food fair in suntec, wa lao, my fren bring me there, omg, I think i have to exercise more le :X emm, saw a gal at one booth selling honey, she is not very pretty, but quite cute. . . . at first my fren tap at my shoulder, i turn and saw her, she also trun around, then she was like quite paseh but she offer us with some hoiney drink sample. . . .too bad we didn take, maybe too shy to look at her again. . . . . . .

After a while, we plan to lift the hall, but my fren receive a call. . . instead of waiting for him, i ask him to wait outside then i take a look at her again :D, went i walk past, one lady offer me again, but i rejected, OMG then she saw, she offer me again. . . . . aiya, no choice have to take. . . .

Thinking, aiyo taking ppl drink. . must act act go inside look around. . . .then got another gal pull me to one side and introduce me about 7 or 8 types of honey. . . asking me to taste. . . aiyo. . in the end no choice, eneded up buiyng a bottle of honey for $54 .. . . . . . .

2008-09-02T22:14:00.002+08:00

Hey. . . going to show you all some SCARIEST PIC of the YEAR. . .
Two scary gal playing aroung with my handphone. . . .

OMG, nearly got the shock out of my life !!!

Tired tired. . today played badminton with pammy, cheryl, her bf and damien....omg cheryl say i look slimer than before lei. . ha ha ha so nice of her, wat a pair of sharp eye she have.

We went the ulu place in sengkang (sengkang sport complex), althought ulu, but the swimming pool was damn nice lor. . wa lao still got wat slide and the jazcuzi pool. . . . ha ha ha tml I am going with my frens :D

2008-08-30T00:06:00.002+08:00

Tml routine:
- grandma house to take my uniform and polish my boots
-SP help out cheng, observe the MCs for SW campfire in the evning, meeting wif standly and southern wave for RBF
-Atttend SE campfire after that, dreifing to the rover crew...

Hais, so tired.

If nothing goes wrong, monday I will officially start my NYAA skills section, and next sun will start the physical section... ALL THE BEST !!!

2008-08-28T02:17:00.003+08:00

27 Aug is my last paper.

EMEC- I got an MC, may require to forward module...

SSTAB- The killer subject, I did study and revise for it. But dunno wat happen, when I look at the question...I seems to have forgotten all the formulas, WTF la, was like study so hard for it, but everything forget.

MEK2- It was a all theory module and I was lousy at memorising theory, OK..ned not need to say much.....you know wat I mean!!!

ELEC- Although did not study the last chapter, but I think the paper was easy, emmmm :D

Some people were so irritating, they say " wa so good, you escape from one subject" or "I think you purposly take an MC because you did not study". Then I was like WTF lor, you think I not sad ah, I spend so much time studying and revising, it the end i got nothing, may even ned to forward module. You think i have no feeling, bastard!

This few days I really scare of exam, thinking of giving up, I really dun like the feeling of starring at the paper and dun know hw to do. Worst of all is, you study hard for it, the question U had done before, U understand the question, you know wat formula to apply....but you jus cant recall the fucking formula.

2008-08-22T00:10:00.003+08:00

OMG, the worst thing has happen to me... I missed my exam !!! the day before i was still worring abt this issue, cause I know wats the reason to cause me to missed this exam.

Firstly, I am not feeling very well, I was too sick to get up of the bed.

Secondly, since sunday, I had been facing problems of not geeting into sleep until 4-5 am. So i did not hear my alarm at 630am. . .

I did take an MC today, but from the school rules, even with MC, u ned to forward module, or the best case is appeal to the director for exemting from classes, then take the exam next sem... wat i am not happy abt is actually I studdy the whole module already, at least could get an B for it.....ahhhhh

I have to admit that main reason for causingmy stress is CCA,
- NYAA
-Cycling exp.
-Rovers big foot
-Unit restructure
-Rrover's progressive scheme
-Exercising
-Relationship problems (I mean between frens and frens)
-PPCDL

2008-08-20T21:17:00.000+08:00

"The worst pain in the world is knowing that she meant everything to you but you meant nothing to her. "

quote from my fren blog.....emmm sounds very trueful...

2008-08-16T00:32:00.003+08:00

Hais, I am back to blog again :D

Tiring day, a lot of unpleasant things happen, however there is also so good news. I think I did well for my two test today, esp my CSW, even the lec. say I did very good. . . the other was my GEMS test.

Hahahad my racket restring today and brought some comics book. . .$$$ fly fly....

Today was suppose to play badminton at the school, but dunno some fucking S*M people say the book the facilities for training. They book through wat alumni thing la, wtf train so hard like they will win like that.....

And I suddenly very disheartning, few thoughs going through my mind. I am so disappointed with some ppl, Hais

2008-08-14T23:54:00.002+08:00

Today went swimming. . . . and you know wat, some stupid kids call me uncle!!! WTH. Do I look very old ?? haha Hais, two paper tml...................:(

Seriously don feel like blogging, althought i got plenty of things to write, emm jus being lazy I guess

2008-08-04T21:00:00.003+08:00

I am still considering whether to participate in a cycling expedition. The expedition is from Sin to Malacca, 4D3N, 480 Km.. . . . . . .emm but first I ned to purchase a bike and some equipment which all will cause a LOT of money.

The exp require a lot of training, but i still got my own hiking exp, then i will be very busy with sport and training....hais

Haha, this few days always to update blog...I think i am going to broke alrd, watch movie on sat and sun, then went botak jones, pasta mania, korean food, MC.....ahhhh there goes my dieting haha

2008-07-30T12:59:00.002+08:00

Seriously I dun know wat to blog lor...sometimes its so sian...For this few weeks life was so dull, go gym if not will go for meeting....Hais.....

2008-07-27T22:52:00.003+08:00

OMG OMG OMG.......I am going to burst already. Meeting or discusson almost everyday, inc SATURDAY and SUNDAY. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRGH, after every meeting my head is cracking like hell, oh man i really cannot take it le, plus I am not feeing very well this week, my sickness have been dragging and dragging!!!

I wan to rest !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-22T23:23:00.002+08:00

Whooo, jus finish planning planing the phase 1 of my event route, OMG, i spend four hours on phase 1, imagine still have 4 more to go :( but be positive it is for charity !!!!!

Sick Sick Sick.....

2008-07-21T11:56:00.003+08:00

Hahaha, good news, I am sick again....that day still joke with my fren that this sem i haven got any MC yet....hahaha yes, now i did it, I am proud of myself :

Last week i my timetable was so tight, somtimes have to stay in sch for meeting until 10pm, even sat and sun have to go meeting. Not only meeting, I still have to make time for gym and exercise. Not only this, I am having my PPCDl test soon, planning for NYAA, need to attend normally lesson. I am really very very very exhuasted now...very very tired...hais

2008-07-16T22:12:00.002+08:00

This few days I have been sleeping quite early, but jus cannot get into sleep, then the next day dam tire lor.......lol. My fren say i was very moody, face very black like very angry......hahaha, but I am fine la...

Today went swimming in the mornign in SP, then went to GYM after sch to do my chhest workout......maybe lack of sleep and swiming in the morning, I jus seems I don have the strength to push...

Arrrght, I rushing my lab report now, sian, alone again...............................................

2008-07-11T23:11:00.003+08:00

OMG, today is really a tiring day for me again...currently now i am rushing my rover proposal...omg omg omg, theere is hell lot of things to do. I have all the resource and idea, the problem is i jus dun how to present it in a nice and proper way. i.e use table, graph, point form....bahbahbah, I am so lousy in all this!!!

Today went GYM to train shoulder, aps and traps....after that went to run 2.4km...now my wjhole body is aching again.....arrrrgh

2008-07-09T20:42:00.002+08:00

Today is really a tired day for me... after my class.

Went swimming after my lesson at 12, today did not swim as much as usual, jus sun tan a while then sprint for 2 laps...then thats all. Saw a weird uncle in the changing, haha he keep talking to me then tell me how to do warm up before swimming, and OMG he was naked lor, then keep walking around showing.......

After that, went jogging in the SP stadium...also did not do much. Only jog for 800m, cause is jus warm up for the bodyplus it was drizzling.

After the walk went to the GYM with my frens...we were using the gym above the sport hall....the people inside was all from GYM club..and some of them were quite fit lor. Cause I got a few frens from the GYM club, emm I get to know some new frens.

errrr, I do only the chest routine....realy start to feel the pain now...hahaha, actually wanted to do bicep de, but my frens wan to leave alrd, so only manage to do 3 sets of bicep curl.

When I reach home, I continue with my shoulder routine, then follow by sit ups....
tired tired tired

2008-07-07T20:52:00.003+08:00

This few weeks I have been exercising a lot. I do workout everyday, tue and thur jogging, wed and sun swimming. And this few days really cannot sleep well, lack of sleep, plusI have cut down a bit on my diet. ARRRgh, I think I over work my body already.

-No mood for anything
-Restless
-No strength to use brain
-very very very tired

But I think overall is worth it, I have cut down a few KGs and my big belly reduce 1 inch, OMG OMG OMG. But grow in chest,shoulder and arm.....emmm but at least look better..hahaha

But dunno why la, this few days watever I ate, I felt like vomiting out...and the feeling is so real lor.....hais

2008-07-05T09:06:00.003+08:00

Sian Sian Sian....still have to go back for a meeting in my sec sch.....I duno wat stunt they are up to again. Took up my saturday morning....seriously, i think this unit have no future for me, that why I intend to step down. What so great about be a chirman, what so great about being at the top.....sian sian sian

Currently I am holding a big project, if everything successful it is a big national event...who cares about ***08.......tsk tsk

2008-07-03T23:22:00.002+08:00

Most of the time raising a dog will have more sorrow than happiness...why i say so....no matter how much fun, joy u have wif ur dog...at the point its going to part wif u...the happiness u used to have will not cover ur sadness. Esp that is a good dog, and always do things that u will not forget...

I reall cant forget the dog I use to have.............I will always remember her..........She is such a good and loyal dog.......

2008-07-02T18:52:00.002+08:00

Today only got one tutorial from 10-11, so aftre sch I went clementi swimming complex for a swim. OMG, the area there was very large, but dunno why, the pool did not really have chlorine smell and it taste somehow salty...yecks..hahaha. Too bad, they don have canteen there :(

After the swim I keep felt like fainting, the world is like spinning around. Almost fall down a few times when I walked.....lol

Result

2008-06-30T21:32:00.002+08:00

Get back two paper on the first day of sch :X ETRON was not sure as I skip the first lesson .......haha.

ship stability-55
This is a killer subject with 12 forward module student in my class. Although I got only 55, but i am happy....cause MOST of the ppl got 50+

Engineering Mechanics-42
OK,I deserve this marks, cause I didn study at ALL. But I must say the paper was easy. Now i seriously regreted. If i gto study...scoring 70 and above is not difficult....hais

2008-06-29T23:45:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, insted of going to Hougnag swimming complex, I went to Serangoon Swimming complex....emm. Although the area was quite small and the facilities were not very new...but seriously a lot of ppl sun taning there....esp gals wearing bikini hahaha...OMG!!!

After the swim, I went to a nearby foodcourt and have a feast.....haha all effort gone to waste again :X

Sian, tml is the starting of sch...........hope everything went on well !!!

2008-06-28T02:02:00.003+08:00

Yesterday I think I did foolish things again, I pon my CSW class and my GEMS class, so boring. Instead I went to Jurong point, OMG, I saw A limited edition DS lite, wow, it is kind of special. Although is more expensive.....but it is so style lor, OMG.

杨培安&萧煌奇 - 你一直都在

不敢相信你就这样离去
就在那场滂沱的大雨里
无法忘记那句简单的鼓励
多年以后还萦绕在心底

曾经我迷失自己曾经我想过放弃
人生的路口该怎么抉择我看不清
后来我终于明白理想它一直都在
只是恐惧不安逼着我去逃避

是你给我力量让我能勇敢的站在舞台上
是你给我信仰让我能找回信心不再彷徨
每一首歌都有最真实的呼喊
你一直都在你是我生命的太阳

是你给我希望让我在黑夜里看的见亮光
是你给我梦想让我在蓝天上面展翅飞翔
每一首歌都有最真实的呼喊
你一直都在你是我心中那道最耀眼的光

窗外的风缓缓摆动的风铃
是不是你在耳边低语
飘落的叶翩翩飞舞的蜻蜓
会不会也是你的身影

或许我不够坚强或许我不够努力
才会让自己一次又一次流泪叹息
现在我终于明白理想还一直存在
我要连你未完的梦也一起努力

是你给我力量让我能勇敢的站在舞台上
是你给我信仰让我能找回信心不再彷徨
每一首歌都有最真实的呼喊
你一直都在你是我生命的太阳

是你给我希望让我在黑夜里看的见亮光
是你给我梦想让我在蓝天上面展翅
飞翔每一首歌都有最真实的呼喊
你一直都在你是我心中那道最耀眼的光
你一直都在你是我心中那道最耀眼的光

谁会是我生命的太阳 ?

26 June

2008-06-26T20:54:00.002+08:00

26 June,

I have mixed feeling now, things happened in this few month keep flashing back. Happy, sad, emo, sweet and angry. Kept thinking of the past, things should have been done is not done!!! Every year, every month, every hour, minute, second......you are olny allowed to live ONCE, there is hardly a second chance for the opportunity you have missed.

Today I finish my last paper, it was engineering mechanics. I still rem I walked out of the classroom at 1130. I know I will fail this paper, because I only did 3 MQC, and the ans were wrong. I know this is rather stupid and ridiculous, but.............

Now, I decided to edit this post, after this, I have to chong my GEMS assignment, which carries 20%

Yesterday I try to paste my laptop skin, ok, not too bad i would say...hahaha. then today went all the way up hill to help my fren paste his laptop skin. His is more challenging, I have to trim a lot of things......i spend 2Hrs just to make it perfect. All right, no complains, what are brothers for!!!

Actually wan to wait for him to finish his project then go hime together. But later I saw my rovers senior, haha then we decided to go jurong point to eat, (To celebrate last paper) hahaha.
we went to crystal jade to have noodles and dian xin........

Currently, I still have a lot of things incomplete, like route for the charity walk, training program, program outline...oh man, no mood for doing all this!!!

This few days have been focusing on exercising..I grow in muscle but fats still the same hahaha, emm until now, I have lost 2kg....lol haha. Intend to go swimming this sat...provided no sudden even :D

From cheryl blog: Study + Hradwork = results pay off ?

Emm, ok to me, yes it is true that sometimes it doesn really pay off, much of the effort go to waste. BUT I know no study + no hardwork = definitly no pay off. I understand sometime it is disheartening when you didn get the result you wan...but at least you can tell yourselve that " I did my BEST, I have no regrets".

:D :D :D :D

2008-06-23T20:19:00.002+08:00

Hais, one paper down, left with three. . . . hahaha. One good news and one bad news for today test. The good news is there is only ONE question which I dun know how to do....hahaha, guess wat..the bad news is..... the question carries 40 marks...lol hahahaha. Oh man, I am gone...

2008-06-22T21:24:00.002+08:00

Hahaha tml is my first paper le. . . but dunno why I don seems to worry even though I did not really study for it. hahaha

Yesterday meeting was stressful, I am the program head cum training I/C for the event...it is a charity event, people have to walk 250km for the event, then we intend to invite president and minister to be the vvip. If everything is successful, it will be a big event...

I must say it is stressful to plan...but I have confidence in myself !!! :D

2008-06-20T23:03:00.002+08:00

Emmm, school is starting soon, but I am still left with 2 subject to revise and hell lot of assignments to complete.

Hais...a lot of unpleasant things happened this few days, hell lot of things. I feel so lost, dunno wat to do. All this things really made me think a lot. Sometimes is not angry but SAD... ... hais

Tml is another busy day. Want to go swimming tml morning at clementi. After that, go for a meeting at cci base. From 11am-3pm.....hope everythings will go smoothly for me.

Malaysia Trip 12-18

2008-06-19T22:23:00.007+08:00

Haha, I did enjoy the trip to malaysia. . . a lot a lot of happy things happened. I swear I enjoyed.

OK, a lot of things i wanted to post, but jus dun feel like.....esp in malaysia, i wanted to post something very strongly but i forget wat is it now le hahaha...

2008-06-10T00:46:00.002+08:00

Went swimming today. . . hahaha, did not really "chong" cause my mind was kept thinking about something.....cannot focus.

Yesterday flyer job was kind of tiring. Was so angry at a few ppl......hais,

2008-06-06T11:40:00.000+08:00

冰冻三尺, 非一日之寒

2008-06-04T22:17:00.001+08:00

Suddenly think of the fun and joke we used to have back in our secondary schools days. . . haha. . will nvr forget

2008-06-03T23:20:00.002+08:00

I have a conclusion for this few days. . . . . .when you wan to do a thing, do not think in terms right or wrong, think in terms of, when I am old, if I do not do this , will i regret ?

let go. . . . .you will be free

2008-06-01T19:31:00.002+08:00

Haha, ok ting dong bell. . . . . ha ha ha I duno wats wrong wif me la. ha ha ha

ok, will go swimming tml morning, after that met up wif my mom. . . my dad have been nagging me abt my ppcdl (power presured craft driving liscense) he keep saying take the course already but dun wan to take examine... ok this wed i will go for a bodu checkup wif my frens and will take the liscense after exam :D

this few days a my grandma house have been quite lonely, the quitness had let my imagination run wild...think a lot of stupid stuff. . . SO LONELY

off to grandma house again . . . . .lol find me my fren. . . .i am so LONELY :D

Fine

2008-06-01T12:06:00.004+08:00

Forget it. . . . . . . . . I finally understand wat kind of person u are, and I know I am jus being stupid.

I don need your attitude, I have my own !!!!

Cheer up Jonathan :D

2008-05-29T22:26:00.003+08:00

Sorry frens. . . i seems to be weird for this few days, complaint a lot on minor things. I have let my emotion take control over me. Althought I did not really let go but I am feeling better now. . . I understand that I cannot live on like this. I am seriously mentally and emotionally exhausted this week....

This afternoon when to my grandparents house, seriously feel the loneliness there. Imagine I have to bear with it for 4 days. And I have to eat alone. . . without accompany. Only hope that frens will ask me go to out so I wont be lonely. . .

Emmm, will not be online for this few days. . . so sian, no frens to chat wif. Hahaha, this coming saturday is my test for the first-aid course..aiyo so nervous....pls let me pass. . . :D

2008-05-27T22:04:00.005+08:00

Tuesday le. . .currently I have three projects with me, gonna complete before holiday !!! ppl are tough, I know I have to be tougher than them.

Tml night my grandparents and uncles are going malaysia to attend a relative wedding. . . They will come back only sunday. So, I have to stay over at my grandparents house. . . :X maybe I will go after school, but only stay over on fri onwards. Haha, i have to feed the birds, water the plant, do some house chores. . . But seriously, I think the parrot is cute lor, cause whenever my grandpa away for holiday it will emo de, it will not make noise, dun wan to eat. . but it will become dam high when my grandpa came back...lol

Dunno why, I jus dun like to be alone in that house, cause the house is always so crowded, fill with laughters, joy, sweet memories...the feeling is different when I am alone in that house. You would felt extremly lonely and emo... ANd worst, there is no internet connection :(

And i dunno wat happen to me this few days, I am so sensitive, but I won get emo, I WILL get piss off...and I fully understand that some people are arrogant and selfish... who do u think u are !!!

Sometimes I really hope that I get a nightmare, rather than a sweet dream. . .

For a nightmare. . . although it is terrible and scary. But at least when i woke up, I could tell myself, "thanks goodness" I am still alive, I am so lucky...bad things is not happening on me. I am still the good old self.

For a sweet dream. . . no matter how sweet, when u woke up, everything is gone. The reality is not like wat u have in your dreams.."so wonderful". You are back to facing the real nightmare... SO SAD

OK, frens around me should have notice I have been so unhappy for this few days, you all know the reason, sometime me myself dun wish to mention it, it is like rubbing salt on the wound. . . I also dunno what exactly happen to me, i really dunno the real reason, I dun even know I am sad, angry, emo or watso ever. . . I am so confuse now!!!

I have been acting strong. . . I really afraid that one day I might breakdown. .

歌手：陈洁仪
歌曲：心痛

你总是这样说我
像一颗不容易溶化的糖果
带我见你的朋友
又很得意地埋怨我沈默
你追问我的行踪
你在乎我的举动
哄得我泪眼迷蒙
做些事情让我被感动
望着你突然一阵心痛
一次又一次任那感情放纵
你的脆弱让我走不开
你的依赖所以我存在
想着你还是想到心痛
期待我做的将来你都会懂
有一天真
如我有一天
但愿我还在你记忆中

Haha, this is a old song, but recently then i discovered it is so meaningful.

HAIS, unhappiness

2008-05-24T09:35:00.002+08:00

I am so down…for this few weeks I just cant sense the happiness out there. I have been troubling by something which is very hard to put into words and I don intend to post out here.

As for schoolwork… I have been escaping from the reality every time. All classmates around me have started their revision, I know I am seriously lacking behind them. I realize this problems and I would also like to do something to it. But is just seemed that I don have the mood or motivation for myself.

I am such a sensitive person that others would easily affect me. Arrrg, I dun wan to be a sensitive person……..I am so concern about how ppl view me, think about me, the words I tell them, the words they reply to me. ……..I , aiya, dun wan to post le…so sian

So tired

2008-05-23T19:34:00.009+08:00

Hais, dunno why i felt so tired lor. . .haha my fren give me a ginseng + coffee sweet. . . i think suppose to be a health product. The name is "MAN TALK". . . haha sound a bit . . . .but i think it somehow got some effect on me. BUT I am not going to mention wat effect :X

Althought I THINK got some effect but I am still so tired. . .

Dirty Day

2008-05-20T19:01:00.003+08:00

Hais. . . today is a veryu very tire day for me. Workshop today was reparing valve. A valve is about 15-18kg, it is very heavy!!!Incredible strength of the vice to hold a valve!!!

Hahaha, my partner was aiman, we had a hell time to unscrew the nuts and bolt, dunno which baga tighten it until we have to use ALL our energy to unscrew. OK we were the last group to dismount the valve. . .

Haha, but because of team work, we became the FIRST group to finish althought something happen .. ..

This something let us understand wat is retribution. . lol cause we want to tigthen even tighter than just now. . . to let the next batch to have a hell time unscrewing it. . . let other ppl taste we we have tasted, hahaha i knoe is a bit eveil la. . .haha. BUT, after we are done, we found that one of the component inside (gasket), we forgot to put in :X WTH lor, haha. NOW we have to unscrew the even tighter screw. . . arrrght. . . .

After we have assemble all components, and since tml school start late, (means more resting time). . . hahaha, the evil idea is back :). . .

Aiman cutting the gasket

Vesak Day

2008-05-19T16:03:00.004+08:00

OK, my dad sunglasses, not mine :(

Went out with my family today. . . This morning we had dim sum, and then we proceed to temple and pay our respect. Today is dam dam dam hot and stuffy. I hate this type of weather.

OK, always want to buy a sun glasses, but it is not easy, cause the type that i want does not match me cause i got am short sighted, if my glasses is with degree, it would be too thick, then i will be not nice le. . . hais. .

2008-05-18T23:30:00.007+08:00

Emm, chat with jin sha about something today. . . hahaha. Now I got really a lot of things wanted to tell you. . . hais, maybe another day bah.

Ok, I know this pic look blur, but it is a very big pic lor, 5100x3000. This is a photo of my "NG" clan. . . took during chinese new year, but only until now the pic is on my hand. :D I was so happy on that day because I open a table and gamble there :X haha i won about $80 that day. . . .too bad, dinner was ready and we have to stop . . . if not i will "sha sha sha" haha

OMG, went sakura today wif my frens after the first aid course. . . dam ex lor $30 one meal. . . xin tong leh. . . . . and also didn really eat much, cause i was sick :(

I screwed up

2008-05-16T15:50:00.003+08:00

Haha, It have been quite sometime since I wear formal.

Hais, today I have screwed up my interview, I did not perform well. Maybe I was too nervous, words seem stuck at my mouth. My lecturer say I did not perform as well as the mock interview, and my look was very serious, did not smile. I am so disapointed in myself. . .

Haha, i think I have choosen the correct gems, cause my gems everytime seem to end early, he only teach twenty to thirty minutes. :D

Today I was extremly emotional, for twice I was extremly excited and extremly sad. And next time for no stupid reason I wont change the blogskin. Now have to type all the link !!!

School SXX

2008-05-15T14:25:00.004+08:00

Today is the first time in this sem that I start revising my modules. Seriously, I am lacking a lot behind. Major module like, elec. Eng Mec, Ship Stab is a killer man, plus there is still my stupid SA program and first-aid course.

Hope I can get at least 60% of my group report done up. I AM THE ONLY PERSON DOING IT, asshole. Time is really running out, still waiting for my fren to send me the photo before I can even start.

Hais, went all the way up hill today, saw pammy, yuwei, cheryl and their frens doing project. The way they share their information and work load make me envy them. This is what we call project, what we call group work. Sometime you will get a lot of *** in your group. They behave differently, act differently but in the end, everybody get same marks, ( BLOODY UNFAIR)

Haha, although a lot of stress in school work, I dunno why I feel so happy this few days. Maybe i know the reason, or I don. . . . hahaha, anyway, tml is my job interview. Knid of nervous, cause I am the first person. Being the first person, I have no interaction with my frens before interview.
I can speak well only when I have "warm up", or happy. Currently like no motivation is acting on me :X . . . . . . .

I love this sebtence a lot, "There will never be a day, when I won't think of you"

2008-05-13T21:13:00.002+08:00

For today, I am find, seems to have walk out from the semi-emo stage, however, the sunshine tml will determind my mood for the rest of the week. I know it sound stupid, but sunshine/daylight at certain place, certain time motivate me !!! Sort out a lots of things, get to know the truth of a lot of things. Keep recalling of my past event (happy event). Emmmm, sweet and wonderful memories on EVERYTHINGS.

Help a fren to collect her watch today, OK, at the shop I saw the type of watch i have been looking for. Wahahaha, I will be back if I have the money!!! Tml after my class, I will go shopping :) want to get a lot of things !!! Seriously a lot of things to buy.

Got addicted to a song, will listen a few times a day. OK quite a nice song. But it was kinda short. Try to find and download, but cant find. . . emmm too bad... trying hard to find.

Emmmm, this few days have been thinking of the question that maybe asked during interview, WTH my slot was on friday morning, and I am the FIRST interviewee. OMG the first one always die first :X hais. . . . . my long sleeve shirt seems cannot wear le, since i have been putting on weight. . .hahaha. Talking about professional image, me and my frens think we should wear overall for interview lor. . .

Morning

2008-05-12T08:42:00.005+08:00

OK, 8.40 am now. It is obvious I skip lesson. Cause did not sleep until 6am yesterday. I was so angry about something that i seriously raise my blood presure. I felt my chest extremly pain and heart beat a lot faster this morning. Sight

Too bad, a lot of "angry" stuff one shot. For e.g, the stupid SA program i ned to attend was fall on thurs 8-10, i was dam piss off. Why cant u give me the bloody slot on wed afternoon. Thurs is my only day that start sch late, at 1030. bloody fak, then i have to wakeup early. Somemore, thur is the worst day i have in my timetable !!! Fak off.

Keep giving me excuses, cant i have the bloody wednesday. I was very irritated when i received the call from dunno who laa. Almost quarel wif her on the phone.

Sighh

2008-05-12T00:45:00.002+08:00

Sighht, I am feeling better. But still quite confuse. Guide me my frens !!!

I think I somehow also ned go "da xiao ren"

LIFE

2008-05-12T00:10:00.003+08:00

Sight. . . . This is LIFE, what can you expect~~Nothing

And seriously don like my own attitude. I think i am that type of person who thinks a lot, imagining things. Often only think of being the best and being on the top. FUCK man, i am such an asshole.

ARRRRRght, feel so irritated yesterday. OK i dun the reason, jus feel irritated. What a fucking world is this.

And I am kind to 'NEW' frens, but tat doesn mean i like them. Bastard. I will take on your challenge, if you insist

Irritated by MYSELF, no others but MYSELF. This world is fucking cruel. And I HATE myself. Every stage of life is like a dream, you have to wake up sooner or later.

Ok, I am not feeling emo, but. . . . . . . . (this is life).

HAPPY DAY

2008-05-09T20:05:00.003+08:00

Hahaha, today gems was a short one, end around 1.45pm. . . . lol, after tat, meet my "long lost bro" and some classmate PS. We when eat swesen. My so call long lost bro was my year 1 classmate, quite a close fren to me, however, Ending of sem 1 he was being called to NS as he is already 21 years old. SAD. . .. . . .But get to met him today make me feel so happy :D

Overall rating for today was great, quite happy. A lot of happy things happened today. I hope every friday cann be like today.

After talking about happy things, here come the unpleasant. Sighhhhhh, have to go for a first-aid course tml, 8.30-5.30, worst, ned to ta bao our own food there. Here goes my saturday. . . .and the rest of my weekends in MAY. . . . . . .But hope the "something" can cheer me up.

Ai De Ren

2008-05-08T20:37:00.003+08:00

爱不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等

疼不了我爱的人片
刻柔情它骗不了人

看到我爱的人
我只能把爱默默藏在心内

离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分

我不是无情的人
却将你伤的最深

Haha, NO special meaning. But find this sentences quite "gan dong" Hahaha, btw, most sentences were from a song lyric

06 05 08

2008-05-06T23:03:00.003+08:00

Today was so tired... everything went on smoothly :D

Still rem i mention that i think i did something wrong in my previous entry. OK, i have proven it is a wrong move. Sighhhh, or maybe i am too sensitive or too tire to think about it.

Thinking of the stupid psychological test my fren give me. . . although is stupid, rubbish, BUT somethings is quite true lor. This few days i have been bothering about the "bear and rabbit" answer. I am still not very sure about this !!!

Katong APSN

2008-05-04T23:45:00.002+08:00

Went Katong APSN (association for persons with special needs)yesterday for a campfire, at first though is attend as participant, but I think we are suppose to help out. WE DID HELP OUT !!!
haha.

All the guest were people with special neds and their families and teacher. They are all so young and innocent. It is kind of sad. . . but yesterday, really see them enjoying themselve. They were laughting and playing tat night. Happy for them :D

Busy life

2008-05-03T08:10:00.002+08:00

Sighhhh, life starting to get busy again. Have to attend a meeting today morning, attend a campfire tonight. Tue,Wed,Thur, start on SAA project. And there is a first-aid course on saturday. . . .life

My stupid LC module send me and my frens to dunno what stupid self-access course, ask her why and always reply "Is good for you". Fak laa, if our english is lousy jus say out laa, it is a fact what. We rather face the fact than you say "You all are lucky, out of some many pl, I have choosen three of you".. . . . . . . .

Yesterday, i think i did something wrong again, however, I must take that move in order to do something. Hopefully it is a right move. . .

Beach

2008-05-01T14:46:00.004+08:00

Haha, first time i saw a jellyfish :D

Lol, i even saw a blue jellyfish

Although today is a warm day, but breeze at the beach was quite strong. It is some how windy, haha.

My Grandma Birthday

2008-04-29T23:21:00.010+08:00

My Grandma Birthday
My DAd and Mom My"干爹"& "干妈"三叔 and his wifespoiler =P小叔 and his wifeMy youngest bro and his "干妈""干爹 and "干妹
My Granfather :DMy second brotherMy "干妹", she is a twin (Although doesn look quite alike, but i couldn reconise, SORRY my BAD)
Should edite this pic, (lazy to)
My family :D全家幅
Haha, my "干妹" is getting more and more pretty le :D

Haha, its me, wan to try something funny !!!
Just brought this slipper, haha, at first still thought my"小叔" is getting one also, hoping him to pay for me =P, but after trying, he say it doesn look good on his feet, WTH. Pay my self :X

After i got back, multi-tasking on transfering photo and updating blog, haha, it is my first time uploading so many pic lor. No choice, have to use both laptop, and destop !!!

Today i really did enjoy! A lot of pleasant things happened, I am super duper happy lor (for this moment). Hope my frens around me will get as HAPPY as I am. lol I really enjoying the feeling of family members getting together !!!

Haha

2008-04-28T23:01:00.000+08:00

My paradise

2008-04-27T18:44:00.005+08:00

Haha, enought of those emo stuff :D Below are some of my favorites at my grandparent's house.

Mulberry fruit

Mulberry fruit about to ripe
90% ripe

The "tree" now is taller then me !!! It grow really fast. lol The only thing I dun like is some idiots when they walk past they will pluck the berry !!!

Haha my parrot
It like ppl he/she knoe to stroke it's head

The parrot is cute, when it is in good mood, it will mimic speech or laughter. However, sometime when it is hungry or what so ever, it make dam irritating loud noise !!! The noise is so sharp and loud until you cant concentrate on anything!!!

Saturday Morning

2008-04-26T09:31:00.004+08:00

Today, when i get up, i clear everything, tidy up my room. I have somehow sort out my thoughts. I am a brand new person NOW. I PROMISE !!! However, there is still one problem deep in my heart that I still no able to let go. I didn realise untill today that this thing leave a deep impact in my heart. I hope that there is still time and chances for me to solve my problem !!!

故国不堪回首, 落花流水春去了.

From today onwrds, i will take this as a lesson and a reminder for me !!!

Haha, today i shall end here, off to my grandma house. bb

S*A

2008-04-24T19:25:00.003+08:00

I start to find SM* more and more boring, there is no life !!! Arrrrgh, i ned to attend a "Medical First-Aid On Board Ship" . . . . . . . .lol this course cost about $197 for the dam bloody 4 SATURDAYS, from 0830-1730. . . .oh no, there goes my sat !!!

Secondly, me and my frens was discussing about lecturer, we call one of them jigglypuff, once he open his mouth, we felt like sleeping. . . yawn !!! the other was even more POWERFUL, he is the wigglypuff !!! ha ha ha, nobdy can escape from their attack "sing", or should i say "chanting".Hahahahaha

2008-04-23T14:46:00.002+08:00

I have been asking myself, should I forget about the past and start afresh or should I brought forward the unpleasant memories and serve as a constant reminder. I am so confuse now.

On one hand there seems to have hopes for me, but the other seconds, it you again to tarnish my hopes. Is the situation as bad as I am thinking now or is it just pure imagination.

人情于物质相比, 到底哪个更有价值 ? 如果我门能对于困境中的人有所帮助, 我门所损失的那点物质又算得了什么? 物质的东西我们还可以再创造, 但对人的伤害却难以弥补. 珍惜人情味吧, 它的价值是无法估量的! (Quoted from 解开你的心灵枷锁)

Writing all this stuff does not show that I am a emoing or weak, is jus that I start to realize things around me, finding ways and learning ways to get away from them and improve my life. I want to live to the fullest while I still able to make it !!! And I also hope that frens reading the quotes might get something beneficial from it. :D

Realise life

2008-04-22T21:38:00.001+08:00

I am already 18 years old, I realize that I am always taking things for granted, did not know how to cherish things around me. This few years, I always try to sit back and think, I am a very fortunate person and “lucky” person. . .

I understand clearly that if I carry on like this, I would regret one day. I try to do something but it seems did not help at all! The day for me to regret is coming nearer, I know that it will be a irreversible truth, fact.

However, sometimes, I let my greediness, my emotion, and my action take control over me. Only after the event then I thinks back, but what is the use then, everything is already over. I cannot turn back the time and start over again. Most of the time you are only given one chance, but in fact, I am lucky to have a lot of chance . . . Too bad, it gone, once and for all. . .

不管一个人身前有多么辉煌, 多么富有,在死时, 他连一样也带不走. 我们对尘世的贪欲和留恋太多,反而阻碍了我们好好来品味自己的人生.我们不应用消极的思想来阻碍自己的创造, 相反,我们要更懂德珍惜和拥有自己的身命, 让他发挥自己的最大价值.

2008-04-21T19:12:00.001+08:00

Nothing much to blog today, Four lesson, slept in three classes, lol. Wonder why am i getting more and more restless !!!

Changi beach

2008-04-20T16:44:00.002+08:00

Today i went to Changi beach alone. . . I sit at the bench looking at the sea. The beach was crowed, so far, I think of the best sea view was from a shelter in PU. Although it is located deep inside. . .but I think all the traveling journey is worth it!!!

I sitting there for nearly a hour, I sort out a lot of things. . . and realize that life was like a dream, Everything seem so nice, but it will not last. Everything seem so wonderful but something bad will always wake up, then u are left with NOTHING, NOTHING, NOTHING.

"Forbbiden Kingdom"

2008-04-18T22:54:00.002+08:00

Today met up with Pammy, Cheryl, Yuwei and frens for lunch. . . feeling quite odd, didn talk much. . .lol After that went for GEMS (Understanding Weather) A very very very boring module. . . : ( study about clouds ect... i did nothing but count the number of times i yawn ! Yawn every 40s. .hahaha

Wait for standly, i did not know how the hell he got free movie tickets for accer free movie night. The movie we watch was "Forbbiden Kingdom" i would say not bad, entertaining, funny but the starting was quite boring, and there is no link at all. . . At first i though this movie is ridiculous. .lol !!! Felt asleep for the starting part..ha ha ha ha

Modelling Class

2008-04-16T23:35:00.003+08:00

Today did not when to school, wa ha ha. Intend not to go, but my fren called and said lesson was cancell. . . lol at least i am feeling guilty. Went for modelling class this evening. i got very high after that cause my shifu praise me for my work....hahaha i dam happy lor, i know my effort is being reconise. However i cannot be contented, i have to work extra hard to earn more compliment :D

Cheryl invite me to her BBQ this sat, lol. i only met her twice, talk less than one sentence. . . .but in msn, we chat like we know each other for very long...ha aha, really enjoy chatting wif her. . . . Hearing Pammy and frens changing class happy for them but at the same time make me jealous. . . they start their real poly life, but i will have a tough life to go on. . .

2008-04-16T00:54:00.001+08:00

只要是人,他的身上就总有人性的光辉,只是有时被一些外在的阴影盖住了.一个微笑, 就像阳光一样刺穿了阴影, 让人性中的善德以发扬,让人与人的距离拉近. 因为微笑就意味着友爱,意味着对别人的信任与尊重. 大家同是人类,为什么要互相残杀呢?

M4 Sherman Updates

2008-04-15T22:35:00.002+08:00

My M4 Sherman is 70% complete. Spend 52 hours till now. Still ahve a lot more to go !!!

Turning into a new life (if possible)

2008-04-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

Back then, I use to have great ambitious. A lot of thing waiting for me to complete. Wanted to create history in my CCA, wanted to lead them into a higher stage, where we become more and more well know. Creating legends with my brothers. . . I want to live to the fullest in my youthful life….

But because something happen during the holiday. . . . . . It is not something unpleasant but it destroys my confidence. From then I dare not stand up again, feel that this world is cruel. What you do does not pay. . . . I felt like I am shrinking.

Until a few days back, I rejected offers to be com member in some event. Event my own unit, there is still plenty of task waiting for me…I even turn down my friend offer of planning PLTC.

Planning an event is not simple; it takes more than a brain. In the past, I am not afraid of all this things. I believe fate is in my own hands, I believe I am a good leader. However, . . . now. . . I have been running from the reality, I still don dare to face problem. I am getting sick and tire of it of everything!!!

I having been asking myself for past few days, am I ready ? Will I get back to my old self ?

In the past, I dun really understand what is emo, until I ask my friend, she told me when you repeatedly thinking of something is emoing. Hahaha, then I am am emo guy. I usually think of something minor or major repeatedly. But usually won show it to others or tell others.

I know I have been emoing for the past few weeks. . .happened that this few weeks a lot of things happened. I hope I can get out of everything asap :C
When I emo, I like to listen to sad songs, or get a good sleep (if able to ) and forget everything for the next moment. The best way is still going to a beach. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

2008-04-13T23:05:00.001+08:00

"当你爱一个人, 不能融化在他的光芒里的时候,就做一只首电筒吧, 这不是委屈, 而是执著(zhi Zhou). 谁都知道, 世界不可能永远明丽,黑夜里的光束才最珍贵, 痛苦中的慰籍才最挚(Zhen Zhi)"

"人生的目的并不仅仅是工作, 工作只是我们生活的一部分,如果永不停止地工作, 我们便成了一架机器,失去了生活的意义. 在工作时,我们应该想一想: 我们到底为什么工作?我们的生活中是否还有别的是要做?或许我们会找到工作之外的人生一意.不要因为眼前的烦恼而忽略了真正的人生目标,耽误了自己向前发展的速度.我们拿德起就应该方德下."

M4

2008-04-12T02:04:00.000+08:00

M4 is giving me hell. . . . . arrgh. felt like giving up now. . . .

2008-04-10T23:48:00.001+08:00

Today around 7 pm i started on my M4... nice kit, but i have a hell time remove seam line on the wheel. spend 3hrs do nothing but filing and sanding...

Miniature Modelling Part 2

2008-04-09T23:08:00.005+08:00

Sugar
Chocolate

Chcolate, Coconut, Sugar, ???, Peanut, AlmondHot dog Brea

Today is tiring day for me, when you are doing donut or bread, will get more and more sian. . . At first Mdn Ang told me that she told her daughter that this boy weird weird de, want to learn this type of things. . . . . . . when i sign up this course. lol a lot of things wanted to say, but later too naggy. . .hahahaha

Another course which took part today is the scale modeling course...did not really learn anythings, but gt some advise from shifu... ... What he say did really make sense, he is willing to share and teach...he say "giving me 1 year time i will become a good modeller"...

Pay course fee---$160

M4 Sherman---$49

A book that i pre-order---$45

arrgh, went bankrupt again.......

Shifu want me to build a M4 straight from box and show him... ... i am afraid that my standard was far from what he expect... :C Now starring at the model kit, hand feeling "itch" however no tools right now....lol All tools i put at my grandma house........

Miniature Modelling

2008-04-08T18:37:00.002+08:00

Today i went for a miniature modelling course...somehow it is useful. However it is expensive ($30 x 2hrs). i have complete the part 1 process of making donuts. At first it was like shit, but practice make perfect...lol, but all my donuts were different sizes. haha

Deep thoughts

2008-04-07T17:11:00.002+08:00

This few days at the roadshow have seen and understand a lots of things...Try to figure out past and present life…and will a word, sentence, action makes your whole life change. Will a opportunity pass by u without noticing it. Feeling rather confused and depressed now.

No mood to continue writing le.........................................................................................................